Farewell friend...

Dear Claudia,

So Sunday afternoon I gave away my best friend. I collected together her things and took her to her new home. She was sweet and gentle on the way even though the journey was scary and confusing. She trusted me that no matter where we were going I would still take care of her. When we arrived she walked away from me, interested in the newness of it all. Barely looking back to check I was still there as she just presumed I would be.

When she did look back I was gone. 

Not because I didn't love her anymore but because I want what is best for her. I walked away head held high thinking all the positive things I could to make myself feel better about the decision I had just made. I drove and drove and drove. Not knowing where or when I would stop. I did stop finally. I sat and I cried and felt sorry for myself, which felt so selfish as I was the one that made this decision. 

I know that she will be happy and have all the attention that she deserves. Right now I've had to make some time in my life so hopefully I can make my future brighter. One day you will be by my side again I promise. I really hope you can forgive me. 

Claudia, I wish you the best always. Please forgive me and have lots of fun. 

X

Bed bound...

So the last two days have found me bed bound. An extremely infected insect bite which the nurse assured me wasn't infected a few days ago has taken over my arm. When I say taken over I literally mean it...my right arm is double the size from wrist to shoulder and not looking good at all. I went against said nurses advice of just leave it, it may take a couple of weeks to get better when I thought the pressure from the costricted blood flow may have a negative affect on my health. Thankfully the doctor I saw gave me super strong antibiotics and advised holding it above my heart until it started to reduce the swelling was the first option failing thank hospital for intravenous. Thank you Dr. It is still super sore but is not getting bigger and the pressure has reduced.

Day 2 in bed. I'm not one for rest and I can 'never' nap in the day no matter how hard I try. However am shocked how much I have slept yesterday. All day. And night. I'm stocked up on sleep now and extremely restless today... Luckily I'm left handed and managed to make a cup of tea and some toast as Mr C has gone away on business. My parents are saints and are taking care of the little people for me. One bonus I guess is my pills have to be taken on an empty stomach so maybe I'll shift a few pounds! 

Sadly I had to cancel a newborn shoot today, I'd been really looking forward to meeting baby Poppie. Never mind we will reschedule as soon as my balloon arm goes down! 

I'm also in the middle of sending out wedding contracts - sorry to those waiting, I'll be back at my desk asap! 

Enough of the negatives, I'm going to use today as a thinking day, I have so much in my life to be thankful for and stopping for some time to appreciate that can't be a bad thing.

I hope everyone is having a good week. :)